~Jesta-J3

well its been a while...
i havnt done a lot of anything lately
mostly just drawings, poems and short stories and nothing really worth putting on the site. i wrote a lot as summer was ending, and i think that it was the first time i started using written words to really express myself, and i was becoming more and more emotional the more i wrote. but recently... i seem to have lost what ever it was that motivated me to create digital art.. or even draw. and now... things are getting better... i cant even write. im not depressed anymore and its like i needed pain and hard times to write or create any form of art. and as much as its good that im not depressed recently... i think i want those feelings i had to come back to me... i want to be depressed again because it seems like i cant express myself anymore. i hope i find the root of what ever it is that is holding me back from leting my feelings out...